Have You Abandoned Yourself For The Sake Of A Relationship?
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It can be subtle at first. You start bending back. Their needs, not yours.
As long as they are happy, it’s all good.
As long as things are calm, no conflict, that’s what matters.
There’s a fear that drives the need to put them first, but not even clear what that is?
Walking on eggshells. Which shoe will drop?
(What if shoes weren’t even involved?!)
When you’re afraid of losing a partner, when your fear of abandonment surfaces, you try all the tricks you learned as a child.
“As long as I can make them happy, everything will be okay”
“If I’m go with the flow and adaptable, they won’t leave me.”
“If I’m the perfect (wife, husband, girlfriend, boyfriend, etc.) they can never leave me.”
In the process of trying to protect yourself from being abandoned, you lose a vital part of yourself. Your authentic self.
You quiet and stamp out your own needs, as if they don’t matter.
(but get resentful and unhappy later)
When you lose yourself in a relationship to try to please a partner in order to not be abandoned, you’re doing a deal with the devil.
You’re not being authentic.
You’re not being honest.
You’re depriving yourself of what you really need.
(no, those needs don’t just disappear, and yes, they matter)
If you grew up where this was your MO, how you operated, what was needed in order to survive, your “normal,” you will attract a partner who is difficult to please and you will subvert your needs to placate theirs.
You may attract narcissists.
Or you may be attracted to unavailable partners who can’t give you what you need and you feel you need to fight for their love and attention. You subvert your needs in order to please them first in an attempt not to be left alone or abandoned.
As a result, you can feel like you lost a vital part of yourself. You can feel confused, angry and powerless.
What if this wasn’t the only way to react or operate in a relationship?
What if there were vast possibilities that you could harness (and also get your needs met)?
What if you could attract and communicate with a partner from a place of strength and authenticity (not fear)?
What if you could get your power back?
Coaching With Me You Can: Understand your attachment style and inner child wounding and begin to heal in your relationships.
Attract a partner who is good for you, not someone who activates what you fear.
You can get a new perspective on your patterns and fears. Add new tools to help make your relationship more successful and more satisfying. Break out of your old patterns of reacting from fear that are no longer helping you. You can contact me for a discounted 30 minute session HERE.
I look forward to talking!
Coach Steph
